Soo many decisions...

I'm graduating in April! That's only a few months away and I'm getting anxious about what my life will look like after college. Will I stay in Jacksonville? Go straight to grad school? Get into the GJV program and go to Africa? Will I even me able to find a social work job or will I be stuck at Publix forever? If I do go to grad school, what should I study? What about student loans? Will I even get a respectable score on the GRE? Will I eventually drive myself crazy with all these questions? :)

At this stage in my life, I'm learning how to trust God's leading and His timing. I have lots of ideas about stuff I want to do but I'm not sure what the best path is to get there. I don't want to stay here out of fear and I don't want to move away just because that's the thing to do after college. I don't want to do anything out of fear and I don't want to do anything out of complacency. I don't want to do anything just to do it. I want to have a life of purpose. So far, my that purpose, besides serving Jesus, has been school. I've been a student-in that transitional stage of semi-adulthood. Now that I can see life after school, it's exciting but really scary. Yes, I know, I can be anything I want to be, but that's a lot of options. Sometimes too many options can feel as suffocating as too few options. Don't get me wrong, I would prefer too many over too few, but I'm still stuck on what to do.

My heart is pulled in so many directions-poverty, human trafficking, hunger, slavery, children, teenage mothers, domestic violence victims...I know God will lead me and guide me, I just wish I knew more of what he was doing :)

I mailed my application to go to Africa two weeks ago, I really, really, really, really, really hope and pray that I get in!!!